May be it aint you

So sick - Neyo

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that i'm alone
Cause right now it says that we
Cant come to the phone
And i know it makes no sense
Cause you walked out the door
But it's the only way i hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reasons i just
(can't git over us)
And i'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
i'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And i'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said i'm so sick of love song so sad and slow
So why can't i turn of the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
And you memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said i'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't i turn off the radio?

(leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cause i'm so sick of love song
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was stilll here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn the radio? (x3)

By siewman

Do re mi fa so la ti do!

Cigly cigly puff! :)

Deng! Too much to update about but too sad, no photo. So it's gonna be an old boring post again.

Firstly,

Catched up with jenn the other day with Ai Lin. It's very fun because we laughed almost the whole time about the fatt guy (you know who ailin) haha!

It's fun to actually spend time with the old mates, it's not like it'll do any harm. I do enjoy the day out. It wasn't too long while it lasted but it was fun gorek back the old days stuff to talk about.

We went Station 1 makan. Planned to eat Korean Bbq, but failed. It takes too long to enjoy the food since Ailin got limited time (tuition). Photos are with Ailin, gonna get from her soon. (:

Then,

Went Korean BBQ with Jun Yang, Sean, Xhee Kee & dear. It was EXPENSIVE, but somehow i think it's worth it. The waiter was a Chinese from Caribbean. He looks like some chinese mixed.

We were really shocked when he said he understands chinese. :D But anyhow, he is good looking. haha! Dear got jealous! Haha

The photos are with Sean, gonna get from him also soon. (:

Then,

Today, our chinese tradition the official date for hungry ghost festival. Like every year, my parents will have a very big party like dinner at the shop. So i invited Sean, Jun Yang, James, Alvin and Xhee Kee. But unfortunately, itu xhee kee cant come. ): She have to attend her relative's one.

My mom opened 2 bottle of heineken for they all four. They drank and enjoy while i didnt. Plus they have to use that stupid WORM which can still move in the stupid rambutan to halau me away. Damn you guys. lol!

But overall it was fun la. Better then i expected. :D

Lastly,

There goes our trial exams. Ended just like that. Honesly, the 2nd week of exams are very sickening. It doesnt feel that into exams but you could feel the stress. The freaking annoying stress.

The difficulty of living as a secondary school student. lol

PS : i feel like changing my url, so i might move from blog. This blog will remain like this. (:

yes, you will be loved

here's something to share. :)

Take note on the lyrics. haha.












Just watched David Blaine magic's revealed. So i planned to come blog about him. lol

 He is AWESOME! haha, it's really hard to believe his magic is fake because it's toooooooo real!

haha, look at his tatoo!

Anyhow, Exam left another day. Monday, Chemistry and Maths. Gonna get my prom dress soon. It sucks because i have to spend money again! I saved more or less enough to spend on dress. Other than that, i have no idea where to get the money. Facing financial problem now. It's not fun when your money ran out. Because you can do nothing other then staying at home.

Honestly, i'm sick of going out too much.

Firstly, i'll have to spend money, then stand uunder pressure from parents. But one thing really sucks is, going out is an addiction. For now, i stay at home feels like living in a box. Other thn tv and phone i got nothing else to do. As you know, i aint the type to on9 much.

I have to stick to my plans! Stay home, save money, and study! Tripple S. lol!

Another thing i wanted to blog about is,

I bloody hell got my first warning letter from school. Surprisingly it's my first warning letter and it's the dumbest among all. They send me letter for not coming school for 15 days in a year.

It was so coincidence my niece messed up the letters and i'll have to clean it up. I spotted a letter from seafield. Was thinking "surely my sister got into some trouble in school...". When i saw it was me, my mouth dropped off and i stunned for seconds. Thinking what will my parents think. Later the thought i ponteng school without tell them then jia lat!

Until today, i told my mom about it, she laughed. Like i expected, they'll think i ponteng school without informing them (Means go school then sneak out of school). My mom suspected that i did that but in a way she dont. I dont know how to explain. lol!

Anyhow, I let them sign d. Such a releaved!

Btw, found this in youtube. So wrong about FCC. I have no idea what is fcc but i know its something dirty. lol

signing off siewman

For once the speciality of that feeling

Have you ever thought in mind of what kind of people you'll meet in future, and what kind of person you'll be with in the future?

Will that particular person you meet now, changes to a worst or better person? Will regrets be a major problem you face when time passes?

For the very first time, you're a stranger to her. Complete unknown person until you got closer to her. You thought you'll be her "the one". And so does she. She never believe you would lie, and you thought you wouldnt change from a better to worst.

Who could predict what happen?! You've changed and now you cause her troubles. Her tears tends to fill the eyes each and everytime thanks to you. For once the speciality of that feeling to you she had in her weak, fragile heart fades away. Your action and your empty brainless mind cause her family heartaches, cause her heart to break more and more times.

Who would know you'll actually be such a jerk. Who would know you'll actually do so many shits to her.

But what's the worst was, you dont seem to bother much. We'll let you be, go travel the world as you wished. Go face thriump and disaster but remember, Dont Fucking Come Back To Us when you fall and die by the road side. Because you dont deserve a third chance..

Your stupid action leads you to what you deserve, so dont come back...

Because she meets a wrong person, because that person changed from better to worst, her life changed, her point of view became more reality. She aint as innocent as she use to be. Regrets filled her mind and she wont feel as secure as she use to be.

PS: It doesnt relates to me.

signing off siewman

i've got a sick obsession

Woot! I just realize i've skip quite few weeks about my blog. Too many things had happened, i have noidea where to start!!!

Listed of what happen past few weeks

1. My little niece is born! First seen the light on mothers day. :D ( my elder sis's first daughter)

2. My little nephew is out! :D It was on the last wednesday! (my bro's first son which makes him a dad of 2)

3. I'm sick of pyramid. been there for too many times! I need to get to new shopping malls!

4. exam after another one. I had exam after school exam. wtf? i know. it suck

5. having tuition during holidays. ( how idiotic holidays i have )

So in short, i have the most boring/unplanned/unorganize holidays and i have 3 babies in the house! imma professional in baby now! :D hahahaha. ( sound so old! )

Sorry for my dead blog. Life not that happening and i've got no photo. i need to get a new phone to picture down all my happenings..

Tell you al lil something that happened when my niece was about to born. Me, my mom, and my younger sister was there all together. we waited about half an hour still my niece didnt manage to see the light yet so, my mom called my grandma. My Grandma told that my niece is too shy to come out because my mom was there. ( chinese believes ) Than my mom went out and waited at the ground flour ( labour room is in the second floor of QHC ) Immediately, my niece came out and cried freaking loudly. How ironic right? It's like wether or not we should believe all these..

anyway other thn those that happened, i also,

So far during holidays

1. went yum cha with jun yang & ltr play pool with his friends.

2. Went yum cha with kp in old town. ( atleast we catched up alot )

3. Went yum cha with yong cheng ( so konon want go movie ) lol

4. Went out with alvin for 3 days turut turut. lol ( went 1 day trip to 3K, empayar mall, thn pyramid *thumbs up! We sat public trans whole day. was pretty fun! XD )

5. tuition tuition & tuition.

Now what i want to do/go :

1. Get some new cloths.. ( casual dress specially )

2. Go taipan! I want yum cha thr. very long didnt go d.

3. go out with xhee kee! lol!

4. go sungai wang with vanessa!

5. Get something new to wear for foot. :D

Well, thats all. Teachnically, what i want to do is to shop al long & as much as i want. XD

signing off siewman

the fairytale in ur head had become ur new bestfriend.

I havent heard of this band before. May be i'm outdated but they're good. (:

I'm having alot of problems lately, dont know where to start and i have no idea where it'll end up be. The ending point seems to be so far away. All i need is a person there to listen, because there's very few of them who will understand. Very few..

Not all will understand my situation now, all i need is a shoulder to lean on. Where're you when i needed you? You use to be so close and now you're absolutely a stranger who doesnt even bother what's happening now dont you? I guess you dont give a damn on what happened/happening.

I use to trust you so much until these days, you use to listen to me when i'm down. A caring bestfriend whom i care for.. Guess when time passes, people do change..

There's lot more other problem i should concentrate on.. I'm so lost for this first time. Everything's changing, you, ....

If the time would just stop, and let me rearrange everything back to where it surpose to be. I would choose to hide through out this journey, choose not face any of this shyts. Choose to run away because there's no way out of this maze..

"Happiness could be a simple thing"
 but why do i see it the different way?

i think i feel my heart skip a beat.

I dont know what am i doing, but i'm loving the feeling i'm having right now.

Exam's hereeeeee!! I'm paranoid'ing! Shyt! :(
Oh, i'm loving this song too. I just found out that colbie caillat got this song. XD
Anyway, i wanted to update about something thn to think about it.. I dont think i should.
Anyhow, enjoy the song cause i'm enjoying it.
Off to tuition now. Goodbye!

Ps : ihateexamsssssss!

siewman signing off

I love Giraffe!!

Wooot! Went out with Junyang yesterday to watch

Ip Man 2

I'll definately rate it 9/10. It's very touching in a way. But now i want to watch Iron Man 2. Jun Yang said Ip Man was better but both is AWESOME! There's so many movies i want to watch but i dont think i've got a chance to anymore. Exams are by the corner. Left 2 weeks and all i cant say if i'm ready at all. I cant fail any subjects this time. Not even moral otherwise all my stuff will be confiscated.

Yesterday's outing was fun though it was super tiring. Shoped with Junyang for his shoe, my shirts and presents. Oh oh, btw! I'm now having the urge over

Giraffe!

I've got myself a giraffe strap! It's so cute!!! Hahaha, and Junyang dont say i'm childish/L.O.A of whatsoever! Cause Giraffe's are so so cute! hahahaha. I'm looking for a giraffe handphone hanger now. Wooo! :D

Well that's all people! Goodnight! Offffffffffff to study! -.- Bye now.

Signing off siewman

Watching WALLE!

The Little things that made life great

Bryan Loh!

Wow, i cant tell how sweaty i went after all the dancing. Anyhow, i'm here to announce that I'M SO SO SO OUTDATED! Gosh! It's so embarrassing when i didnt even know IP Man 2 is already out. So does Iron Man 2. I want to watch! :(

Talking about Iron Man,

Vincent did something very bad. HE LIED TO THE PEOPLE HE FFK'ED! ahahahaha! Funny how the story went. I'm backing the one for FFK'ED and LIED by Vincent. Vincent so bad right? XD Hahahahaa! Dont blame me, Who ask u to lie? You could have just tell the truth. They wouldnt be so mad.

Well, after HSM3, now i'm addicted to this song, innocence - Avril Lavigne.

Innocence - Avril Lavigne

I found a place,

 so safe not a single tear,

The first time in my life,

Now it's so clear,

Feel calm where i belong,

I'm so happy here,

So strong and i'll let myself be sincere,

I wouldnt change a thing about it,

This is the best feeling,

time had reach it's limit, where i have to let go.

Please blind fold me, and guide me to the right place where i belong. Where people are always there to lean a hand ; the fantasy which i dream almost every night. If it only happens...

Well! Hello hello hello! Guess what, i'm here to post a birthday post which have been long since i last post a birthday post. :D hahaha.

Diane Sim!

haha, bet you'll laugh Diane though i know u hardly come to my blog but still HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I only get close to you this year. Honestly, i use to think you're very scary. Even though we're from the same primary till now, i never really talked to u until this year. Right? Hahaha. But now i know, you weren't scary at all! & abit blur at times also. I cant say i know u very well, but at least we talk more thn we use to be. Lol!

Shannel Chee!

I know i always write ur name with the extra N. But now i know, it's SHANEL! hahaha

It's been 1 year we've known each other. I know i always ask for tissue cause of my running nose. & i always forget to bring mine but atleast at times i'll bring mine. hahaha! & you use to be santa claus in class giving out sweets all the time. Hahaha, we're not so close until form 4 when we're in the same stream. It's fun talking to you because practically, you laugh about anything & your laughter will jangkit to those whos sitting beside u. Hahahaha! Me, you and Megan the bising ones in tuition class until teacher have to indirectly tell us about how Megan use to be so quiet in tuition until we two came along. Lol! However, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANEL CHEEEE!

Shauna Voon

I still remember when we first met was the time when we're form 1. I made the move asking you to sit bside me. So daring la me! hahahahaha! It's funny flashing back the old times. Now we're in the same bod! Hahaha. Anyhow, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY EDITOR!!

Last but not least!

Jacqueline!

I know u'll be scolding me when you see this post. I've got no choice other thn curi ur profile pic from blog. I dont have a duet photo with u. XD

I knew you since form 1! When we have ironicly bump into the same class. You're a truely understanding friend. Even though we dont talk much but whenever i share my dirty little secrets with you, you'll know the exact way to make it up to me. I'm so glad i've met you! Hahaha, thanks for the little things you did and gave! <3!! Anyhow, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACQ!!!!!

Well, that's all guys! It's a long long birthday post.

I want it that way - Westlife

A band whom i love!

Signing off Siewman.

when the fireflies led up the room

this picture is awesome! <3!! hahaha

Btw, Picture credits to Loh Chung Meng, Han Jin, Shauna, and those photographer of the day. XD That's all i wanted to say. hahaha, Oh wait, there's also 1 thing..

I'm actually loving this song after IR.

Can i have this dance - HSM3.

With siewman signing off

It must have been the way

It's wasnt bad at all. :D

I cant deny, LEO IR was great! Specially the light dance/performance. Whole time was very enjoyable. :D Though i did something too very embarrasing + stupid, but it's all worth it. Atleast now the balloon that had hidden inside me had finally bursted. Feel much relieve.

Honestly, if i were to write about that night, it'll definately be the most longest post i've ever written, so i guess i'll just kept it and post some picture. XD Btw, something more embarrased..

Click to enlarge cos im hard to spot.

So embarrasing i tell u. First time getting up there for best dress. But i aint as stricking as iQan whom stood with me. XD His the undertaker. lol

i like this pic.

Well, that's all i'm gonna talk about. Other thn that, Oh!

My date for the night. Well, it's fun! Hahaha, The slow dancing was akward but after that, i danced with Guo Hao. Sorry. XD It was fun dancing with Guo Hao cos he like banging ppl around. XD hahaha

But overall was fun though

Chong xhee kee got her own time with her special someone which almost the whole school knew about it.XD Anyhow, i <3 dancing with u! :D

ps :

You're the Greatest person i've met. I hate you because i still do care. Anger took over me. I take back all my words about you. I realize i've been dumb for being the different siewman. I shall not change. I never regreted, because you lays the best memories in me. It feels much relieve after i took the last step. Now that i know, i'm moving on without doubts. (: Your smile still do light up the whole town. :D

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

The silence isn't so bad,

Till I look at my hands and feel sad,

Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly.

piece of sweet in sour

Urgh! Stupid idiotic facebook that i cant get in. I have no idea why. It use to be so smooth going into facebook. Few clicks and there i am doing something i wanted to do. But not today. I used a different comp just to get into facebook. Seems like today just aint the day. Anyhow, i'm not here to blog about facebook though i do have the intention to screw fb upright downleft. lol

2ml's I.R. I'm not denying that i'm actually nervous about it. For some particular reason this time, this event feels more alive rather thn all the pervious one. ( i wont mention what events as it could turn out to be a sensitive issue ) lol.

& something strange! I'm back to basketball (again) because i have a bsb court way near my place. Walking distance within 5 minutes. It's been ages since i last go for a real shooting and thru that hopefully i'll get to grow again. It's not so chunted being my height. Dont be stupid, i'll never call myself short but i'm just not satisfied with my own height. Like the ceramah speaker said few days ago, "get all the negative thoughts away from your mind". I am doing that now. XD

Talking about the ceramah, that speaker was good. He's essence was awesome! Honestly, i adore those ppl that could speak the english properly with the uk essence. Not just that, that speak actually give out RM10 to people who answer some question! Everybody's attention was widen when he pulls out red coloured note out of his wallet. How generous of him right?

Unfortunately, the 2 of the lucky student got the money with wide smiles not me :( ( Guess my luck aint that good )& i was insulted by the speaker. He pronounce my name siew "man" as in the lelaki, man! My face almost turned red after that happened. Hahaha, his good in catching our attention as you know our level of paying attention to them ( teachers, speakers, boring ppl ) are very low yet he still manage to make us concerntrate to him.

But KABC classes didnt manage to get in. Dont know why only D - H class need to attend. May be teachers are indirectly telling us that we arent respecting them. =/ and i'm not so sure if I J attended the ceramah. Well, thats all guys! I dont have a main point today, just crapping what's in my mind to prevent my blog being dead. lol.

Make a wave - Demi and Joe
Just a pebble in the water,
Can set the sea in motion,
A simple act of kindness,
can stir the widest ocean

dont say words that breaks my heart.

suddenly i feel like laughing, so i'm posting this.

which is real and which is not? XD Spot me? there's 3 alive ones.

my usual sampat family.

the azhar's creation. lol

Guess it's who and who. XD

a super cool photo. not that funny but it's cool!

a heartfull of surprise birthday party. And my room was like a dumpster. lol

the swimming incident. rmb vanessa?

this seems to be like my memories reminder. hahahahaha. That's about it. XD bye now. Goodnight!

i've been sleeping on the cloud above my head

It's seems really hard to look for a song to listen to when there's nothing in your head while the radio played tons of songs over and over again but yet you can't think of what songs suits u best at the current situation. You know, the feeling that you want to listen to one typical song but just couldn't get what's the song. lol

I've got this all the time. Anyway, i'm not here to talk about this. I'm here to actually tell you something that you would be surprise of.

Do i look like the type who enjoys reading novel? Actually i dont. I've never really read a whole novel before until recently i find myself have really ran our of things to do & i'm stuck with this novel.

People really do change when they have the chance to. Look at me for example, when i was young, i barely want to stay at home. I rather run out of the house enjoying doing silly things with cousin. Staying in my grandma house is everything! Playing hide & seek, acting housewife/mother all sorts of thing rather thn staying at home.

but now? I can honestly tell you i'll rather rot at home to enjoy the rest of the day doing nothing than going out and get all tired out when i reach home. I did change alot compare to last time. I never read a whole novel book and i have already did it!

I'm waiting for more things that i myself would be surprise in doing. Something i nvr dream i'll be doing. Something fantastic and super! :D I'm waiting.

bsb - drowning.

Ironic

Let me explain a story and you'll how Ironic and Crazy things could turn out to be.

It was yesterday how my luck turns upside, down, right and left. If i wasnt mistaken, it happens during the evening right after my niece fast asleep my mom called and was told to take out the chicken from the soup in case it gets sore and soft which wouldnt taste that good. So i took it out of the soup and left it on a plate with another on top to cover it.

Later i went back to my room to continue my story book since i'm really into it. Got noticed by the electrician who needs to come by for fixing, i went down to open the door for them. Than that man realize and shouted telling that there's a freaking CAT sneaked into my house & my chicken's breast is already half gone case.

I was so blur'ed i called my mom to ask what should i do but before that i already told my maid to throw it away. My mom screwed me upright downleft for not taking care of that chicken. Than she shouted at me saying to give it to my pet dog. I gave half and another half the next day.

I freaking CURSED that freaking cat for sneaking in to my place and ate my freaking chicken before i have the chance to! I even said i'll freaking poison that cat when it sneaks in again! Will freaking kill it! & that wasnt the worst part. The worst part is my dad freaking took my phone away for failing moral! For goodnessake! It's only MORAL. I dont know why he complains so much on that subject that he cant stop lecturing me over and over again for so many times.

Anyhow, as i was sayin' that cat was really annoying! But sadly, i found it dead just now about 20 minutes ago. It was dumped ontop of the rubbish bin the corner of the road few houses away from mine. It stink badly but i wouldnt have realized it until my mom told me. She said it was killed by some kind of heartless human using a brick. The brick has a splat of blood on it and my mom said she realize the dead cat since the afternoon.

How ironic things could get right? The day before i was actually cursing and cursing over that cat even this afternoon when i was out with xhee kee i'm still cursing over that cat and ended up it's death like half a meter away from my house. I can honestly tell u that nomatter how i much i curse, i wouldnt dare to kill a mammal like cats, dogs those living like things unlike mosquito (comfirm i'll kill) and fly(not so as i'm not the fast).

It's SUPER disgusting and vomit-like to look at that dead cat imagining how that ASSHOLE killed it. Even my mom will only say wrap it alive and throw it to Puchong so that it wont come back. She said she wouldnt kill it but for me, i think i'll whack that cat nicely only leting it go. But still i'll never dare to kill it. Imagine how cruel and human which could think can be.

May be i think too much, but it's scary in some way. =/ Thats about it. Bye!

You only thinks your way which is already the PASS!

Can't you think about me AT TIMES?!

It's over!

Wow, i realize it has been really long since i last blog. Didnt really have the motivation to blog.. Honestly, i thought of closing my blogs. But too many memories in here d lo. I guess i'll just stop blogging till one day when i feel like blogging, i'll come back to this blog. XD

Hmm, lemme see what event have i been to..

BOMBA CAMP
CF CAMP
INTERACT'S INTERNATIONAL UNDERSTANDING DAY
(something sad happened on iu, dont want to mention) :(
Atleast there's something possitive, my stress over iu is over.

Anyhow, that jerk who did it will really get what he deserve. I hope he'll get crush by a big lorry or got biten by a mad dog very badly or even something more evil. Hate those jerks who wants to do something bad intentionally. LIFELESS JERKS!

Yes, i am angry & i dont need to explain what happen la, cos most of u knows about it.
I'm here to let my feelings out. XD

Let's see what's next on my list..

SPORTS DAY (usual)
LEO'S IU NIGHT
CF RALLY
INTERACT PASS DOWN
Thn it'll all be exams exams and exams..
Woot! almost forgot, we still got..
MPT 5 & 6!

Well, thats all peeps.. Malas want layan my blog d. Since it's already so dead.

Ps: i know why are u mad already.. but i can do nothing about it. I cant control u.

Baby shut up, Heard enough

Ahh, too hot! *melt*

Lol, acting sampat. But he has the killer smile! Cannot resist! *faint* lol

Alright, back to the topic! Well, i've bought a mosquito repellent and a torch light. Well, i took a pretty hard time searching for which mosquito repellent is better in Watson and Guardian. (yeppp, i went 2 place to get a mosquito repellent) and there's a story for the torch light too

In Professor Uniform shop.

Siewman : I see torch light!

Sean : You need a torch light issit?

Siewman : yeala! (looks at the price of the torch light) OMG! Rm99.00 for 1 freaking small torch

Sean : I got one use hand de u want? You'll have to turn it to get light de.

Siewman : Thn i ma need to turn while jungle trecking?

...

...

...

Thn not long ltr, Sean said the same thing to James and

Sean : I got the torch light that dont need use batery de, but need to turn it.

James : So free meh? Go turn it while Jungle trecking.

lol! Yea, so i bought a Mosquito repellent and torch light cos i were excited bout the camp. :D Cant wait to go. Will update more about the camp soon! Well, ofcos after the camp i'll update another time. Btw, something important..

Interact Audition!

Will be on on 11th March, school hall.

Bring your own amps and guitar!

Well, that's about it. Goodnight!

because it's not your thing

Dont come telling me what u feels about me, but come telling me what u know i'm feeling about. Because i dont want to know how u hurt me. I dont want to start tearing apart, when i hear your words. I dont want another tears to drop for you.

xXx

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, i cant fight it anymore.
And i wonder if i ever cross your mind.
For me, it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now.
Said i wouldn't call but i lost all control and i need you now.
And i dont know how I can do without, i just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, cant stop looking at the door.
wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And i wonder if i ever cross your mind.
for me it happens all the times

It's a quater after one, i'm a little drunk
And i need you now.
Said i wouldn't call but i lost all control and i need you now.
And i dont know how i can do without i just need you now.

Yes i'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
it's a quarter after one, i'm all alone and i need you now.
And i said i wouldn't call but i'm a little drunk and i need you now.
And i dont know how i can do without, i just need you now.
I just need you now.
On baby, i need you now.

Need you now - Lady Antebellum.
I miss you grandpa, nobody but you now.

Bring me away

Brandon's phone.

Well, exam's coming! & days been passing so quickly, i couldn't catch up what's happening right in front of me. But what cann i do? Whatever i'm doing i still have to go through it, so i decided to go through it with a open-hearted. :D Smile all along because nomatter what, atleast i wont bring other ppl's day down. SMILE! It's a heavenly emotion. :D

Anyway, get back to examing thinggi i was wanting to talk about. Exam next week, i just had a conversation with xing in tuition.

Well, it started when she,

Xing : You started studying?

ME! : no!

Xing : knew it, me too. lol

ME! : hahaha, gonna cramp everything on friday, sat and sun. :D

Yea, just like most of U gonna do. Last minute revisions. I'm just so lazy to open up the books la, i still has the chinese new year's not over feeling la. Couldn't help myself but to slack off whenever i wanted to study. :(

Btw, i find this song very lovely! I smile all along when i was hearing it. It's one of the song from HELLBOY.

I can't smile without u. <3

I find it so sweet! hahaha

no camera!

omg, this is stupid. You should watch. It's acting like lady gaga and beyonce. Hahaha

Btw, guys sorry for not updating. No camera and only words aint that fun to read either right? So i guess my blod page gonna be dead as usual after this post again. No choice, till i get new camera phone, this blog will remain like this. Sorry, BYE! & Chinese New Year 2010 aint that fun. =/ May be next year. ( well, that's what i said last year ) Alright, byebye!

Signing the lazy ass siewman! :D

When feeling changed.

What happens when she knows the truth?
  - The truth that the person she love, dont love her back.
  - The truth that the person she love, had interest on another girl.
  - The truth that she's been so FUCKING dumb knowing nothing about it.
  - The truth that she cried after knowing it.

What will you do when this happens on you instead of her?
There's only few typical reactions.
  - some cried and go over it.
  - some stood there, and couldn't move on
  - some couldn't bother less about it.

What about those who knows about her stories?
  - Some felt pity over her.
  - Some might cry along with her.
  - Some will stand by her.

Thn what about the person that she love?
Only one answer.
  - Dont effing care about her.

Life is just so typical isn't it? So unfair, reality, and cruel.
You left me there and yet you dont care.

d.e.a.d

cute!

Hello people.

Apparently my blog is dead. Haven't been updating it for ages already. Even for new year, school reopens, birthdays and all the up coming events. I dont know what to say. There's just so many to update. I think imma gonna update one by one and you'll eventually get bored of it. I'll "rumuskan" hahaha. Actually, not only my blog is dead, my msn, facebook, all those which relates to internet is dying. I dont know why, i dont have to mood mari on9 la, specially when school is here. Even if i had the time, i'll rather sleep. lol.

New Year

Actually, there's nothing much to talk about my new year because it had been a SUPER busy new year i've actually been through. My elder sister's wedding was that day. Berturut-turut 3 days ( 1st, 2nd and 3rd of Jan ) I haven't been sleeping well. Slept at most was only 4hrs in a day. Yea, can die! Here's some photo during the wedding. :D

When we're making the boys suffer. *thumbs up

A picture with cousin. Not much photo taken cause i was FREAKING busy. =/

At my brother-in-law's place

Dinner at my bro-in-law's place. :D

Alright, one update is done! Now for the continues.

SCHOOL REOPEN

Here's something new about the school.

- Form 5 classes are on the topest floor. ( Hate this, it's friggin tiring to walk all the way up but this made me lazy to go toilet. hahaha )

- New canteen!! ( Friggin love the variety of food there. There's Roti Canai, Nasi Ayam, Burger and Yong Tou Fu but chicken aint as nice as last time. )

- Pure-Science class had their streaming, and most of them wasn't very satisfied over it. =/

what else.. what else.. I can't think of it. There's nothing much new other thn the canteen. lol

Than, the 5F (senior year!) remains as usual no changes because we're the only acc-sub. So yea, this we had friggin alot of h/w! There's so much to do. Anyway, i'll stop here. The others will update next time when i come around internet surfing again. Goodbye people!

ps : You're so irrisistable. x]

Chai Hong - Jay Chow